Leap of Faith

[jamie77]

I thought that what Mark Twain had to say on the subject of swallowing frogs was to swallow them first thing in the morning and if there are two; swallow the larger of the two first.

[iswallowedabug]

[ninjabear]

The frog did me no harm, I shall leave him to enjoy his little frog life uned and certainly undigested.
Try starting your day with a round of Russian Roulette; you hear the hammer fall on an empty chamber, nothing else will bother you the rest of the day.
Personally, I prefer to start my day with coffee and a doughnut---but since the local Krispy Kreme shop recently closed, I don't know where to get my morning nut.

[ninjabear]

These last few months I've enjoyed these forums but when in doubt, go back to the classics. I have a new appreciation for Romeo & Juliet; poor, crazy, mixed up kids.
I don't want Pam back,
but I don't want anyone else, either.
Begs the question, do I want to be miserable?

Something very Shakesperian about that, eh?

[iswallowedabug]

[ninjabear]

"I thought I met all your friend." Dr. Cuddy, speaking to House, m.d.
You just compared me to Greg House; Bugger, that could be the nicest thing you've ever said to me---the difference between cane and crutch.

I have everything I need to maintain the body, but nothing to nourish the soul; what I can't see is the point in existing, if I'm not really living.

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Ninjabear I have seen your postings and you sound like a man that has alot to give. I would never give up because there is got to be someone out there for you as well as for me. lol. I know I will never give up until I find that someone. I think sometimes it will just happen. You have the bad experiences along the way but after ten years of not looking for anyone I decided it was time to make the effort. I don't know if I will find anyone but I am definitely sure I am gonna try. Anyway on a lighter note your outlook sounds good to me. Dave.

[ninjabear]

I'm just trying to be honest with myself, without being a big crybaby about it.
The whole point of "Goin' Oprah" like this, is to seek a small measure of vengeance while trying to help others.

[iswallowedabug]

[ninjabear]

Again with the cardboard boxes?

Actually, with yet another lonely birthday come and gone, I had given thought to something involving a plastic bag.

[twincarb]

Vengence, my fave sport;
Revenge is a dish best served cold, it is very cold in space, or to put it another way;
KKKKAAAAHHHHHNNNNN!!!!!!!!!

[ninjabear]

I used to love my birthday.
Three years ago Pam gave me the best birthday ever (that includes the Batman party I had when I was four).

Great sex, birthday cake and a riverboat cruise; I think you can see how someone could get addicted to days like that.
I'm finding it tougher and tougher to live without.

[ninjabear]

Had to go to the store yesterday.
Found what I was looking for, headed for the checkout---then I heard that goofy laugh; sure enough, it was Pam and her Mom.
I wanted to ask---demand even---why? No reason I can't...but I ignored them, completed my purchase and left.
I have never deserted someone who depended on me, and I will never understand people who do; but it's what I've come to expect from church people.

[ninjabear]

Sometimes I think I'd like to be a ghost; there are a few people I'd like to haunt.
Wish I could get rid of some of the ghosts in my home. It seems like there's no spot, no quiet corner, that does not make me think of the last two X-girlfriends. Yes I miss Pam a lot more than Nicole, but...sad, isn't it?
I needs me a ghostbuster, but there's no one to call.

[ninjabear]

"Love? You're better off without it, and I'm better off without mine...she won't permit me my life, I have to live hers..." James T. Kirk

Pam and I had been out celebrating some minor business success (hey, any excuse to go out for dinner with my sweetie). On the ride home, in casual conversation, I said there was no way she'd get me into a church.
You had to be there, but it was the right thing to say at the time; though my buddies and I agree that was the kiss of death for my relationship with good little church girl.
All I wanted was a little respect---a steady date, so I'd know when to have something nice ready to go. My buddies and I have movie night every other week, so why can't she do the same?
At the end, I reminded her there are 168 hours in a week; if she couldn't pick one, then Pam didn't deserve to be my friend.
If you really care about someone, you make time for them. I always made time for her, always dropped whatever I was doing when Pam came by...and yet, I was an inconvenience.